Some people may wonder who I am and what brought me to create this blog. Briefly, in September of 2009, I was struck down (literally) by excruciating pain in my right hip, which robbed me of the ability to walk, sit, sleep . . . .
An MRI revealed a tumor about the size of an orange growing out of the nerves in front of my tailbone.
After reviewing my scans, one of the nations top surgical oncologists introduced us to the word “sarcoma” and gave us a likely prognosis of radiation, surgery, and chemo. None of that happened.
Although God didn’t remove the tumor completely, He began a series of miracles that changed my life. I chronicled my journey on a hospital website called CarePages, which ended up being more about God than me. His faithfulness through two surgeries, massive medication withdrawals, and continued recovery not only saved me, but encouraged others who were struggling.
WatchGodWork.com evolved from my CarePage, also entitled WatchGodWork, which I am now putting into a book.
I think before my tumor, I had tunnel vision to some extent, having difficulty seeing beyond myself. Though it came with tremendous pain, I have been given a great gift in realizing the pain and struggles of others. I consider it a privilage to be able to encourage and pray for you as we travel this road together.
The following is an exerpt from my CarePage, posted on March 22, 2010.
Today’s promise is 1 John 2:17:
“The world and its desires [cancer, sickness, suffering] pass away, but the man who does the will of God lives forever.” Amen!
My new appointments at SCCA are next Tuesday, March 30. I will get an MRI and meet with Dr. Conrad on the same day, so we will only be away from the kids one night, unless they decide to do surgery. We will drive to Seattle on Monday. I also meet here with Dr. Moore tomorrow to see what I need to do until then.
Although the pain increased over the weekend, I am confident that it is not serious. Just a feeling. But then, really, what is too difficult for God? He’s carried me this far, and He’ll take me the rest of the way. Please pray for His will to be done, with the care of our children while we are gone, as well as my appointments.
Some “good news” is that I will only be getting an MRI. Not a CAT. I put that in quotes because they are Chuck’s words. I have to have happy pills to get through an MRI, but the last time I had both, the contrast for the CAT made me so ill! I woke up in the middle of the night thinking I was dying! So praise God for that. And praise God for Xanax!
I am reading a book called Yes, Lord, by Dona Hoffman about her journey through cancer. I don’t know where I got it; the past months are still pretty foggy, but I read a line today, that I loved about God, “who regards our Completion as great an act of His glory as our Creation.”
What a wonderful Father, who doesn’t merely give us life and say, “You’re on your own, kid,” but stays with us to our Completion.
Molding us, shaping us, correcting us, blessing us, comforting us . . . all the while keeping us in His gentle but mighty hands. What a privilege to be made complete by The One who laid the foundations of the world!
A privilege indeed, when I consider that it was He who made the way for me. I would have never been able to reach Him, but He willingly came down to my level so I could crawl over His crucified body spanning the great chasm, back to my Father’s arms. Never to be separated again. The Beginning.
God’s grace and peace be yours,